Don't wait, run Or it's gonna blow in your face The truth The hidden shattered splinters of glass Will damage your voice The denial, the touching Dark violet screams You've chosen the sick over the healed Naive child It's nothing personal It always is About a person Or many of them Replace body parts As they come and leave The room Wait What did you do Which part of yourself did you drown this time Under thin ice Buried deep in the ground What did you do What did you This is a hunt for the wild at heart Left out in the open This is a hunt for the wild at heart Days of hunger Forever we burn On and on and on and on and on Forever to walk alone Apart

Emotional terror is a weapon Your tool of survival Guilt your companion Passive-agressive manner I remember how you tried to break her With your ball and chain Victimhood and blame It's what you learned in life Nothing ever Nothing ever Nothing ever Rag and bone man Hoarding clutter Money counter Hoarding clutter Money your master Invest in junk Instead of in people Surrounded by ilk alike In drowning complaint Left outside the circle Talking paranoia Jealous of the other Stab stab stab Stab stab stab Can't count the hits Screaming about love Screaming about blood Like it bought you respect And a son You want control You want possession You want my heart in place of holes You want my submission You want your recognition But what you are is vain and alone I want you to get down on your knees I want you to get down on your knees I want you to get down on your knees I want you to get down on your knees I want you to get down on your knees I want you to get down on your knees And pray I want I want I want I want

Silence between us Silence between When music is not heard And words are not understood Silence between us Silence between When darkness in others Is not being seen Silence between us Silence between When we stand close And not notice each other Silence between us Silence between When the poem is your own And understanding comes from everyone else

When the night shows its fangs and claws Near the forest where the cold wind blows As the life has turned out wrong And the feet are sore from the road She falls Her flings are drained, short casualties Cought in the distance between the leash and the grip So it spins, the wheel of self satisfaction So it bleeds the urge for self deprivation Your language is a temple of lust Your body smells of hope and love But there's a crack between your eyes, I know But there's a crack between your eyes, I know Unreflective animal machines Getting high on instant emotions Shallow and broken little queens Self destruct to fuck with devotion You want the sin You like to fall And the sound of your skull As it crashes to the ground Everybody is waving Everybody is shaking As you turn your head Without goodbye You want the sin You like to fall And the sound of your skull As it crashes to the ground Everybody is waiting Everybody is naked As you tear and rip All the love apart You want the sin You want I'll run towards the sun

I wouldn't know where to begin I wouldn't know if it's right to dream I wouldn't know how to pretend I wouldn't know how this will end But I've got this feeling that I'd like to share with you My love It's not a liar that steals the night It's a dreamer like yours who never learns When the time of change comes about The mind is blurred and the heart is numb Cause all your pieces that were once thrown around Come back in waves to haunt you down But I've got this moment to stand by your side My love Like the waters underneath the bridge Our songs they remain the same Twisting and turning The feelings are burning now Consciously waiting Release me into the sound Drop down the questions Embrace your own wounded self Touch all the answers It's safe for you to be alive The pull to let go is Clouding you softly as you grow Nothing is safe The spark you've been looking for is In your hands

I've tried to keep myself away I've tried to keep myself today To learn and understand the common other way Paid my debts for a shallow grave But there is an end And a chain of command It serves you right to look away It serves you more to inflict pain Show no guilt, feel no shame For the trust you took, a pride without a face But there is always an end And with it comes disgrace Outside We run Outside We run When the promise was broken We were hiding away Outside We run Outside We run When the promise was broken We could not resist escape The closer we walk The deeper we fall

Deep blue sea I can feel you under my skin Deep blue sea Did you come clean To the things you have seen I heard her calling out my name Like a ghost cought between the waves We held our hands And wept away The wages of our stolen dream Together we walk Through sands Through lands As friends As lovers As sorrow behind masks Like animals Like beasts We bite Our flesh In the frost In the forest At the gates of hell We kiss the sky in black and red One moment in time Then fear rushes in We scatter across the sun until we cease To walk To resist Deep blue sea I can feel you under my skin Deep blue sea Did you come clean To the things you have seen You have been

Flowing in the Holden state of mind Counting ducks and wondering where they go When the first snow starts to fall Riding on an infinite carousel Always coming back to the start Never reaching the end When loneliness shades into anger The truth becomes the lie And the lie becomes the truth It would be better if we never understood Post war Peter Pan out of Manhattan An alienated saviour of childness Although he is the one who's falling down When loneliness shades into anger The truth becomes the lie And the lie becomes the truth It would be better if we never understood The truth becomes the lie And the lie becomes the truth It would be better if we

There's a secret space inbetween It's made of you and me No tomorrows, no yesterdays It lives beyond our needs What words can't ever explain Is delivered through other meanings I will keep its doors open wide For you to stumble in Anytime We wake up every day And the system has failed We try to express ourselves But life gets in the way We make up our own stories to tell But there is nothing to understand When we stop making sense of it all We can look into each other's hearts And give love But darkness comes through colours The world is set to crumble No place safe for cover What is left to wonder Tell her that you love her Tell her that you love her Tell her that you love her Tell her that you love her Darkness comes through colors Words got hard to swallow Tell her that you love her Tell her that you love her Tell her that you love her Tell her that you love her Tell her that you love her Tell her that you wonder

Stationed up here The distance Only elevation can gift It’s a borrowed circumstance Possession surrenders softly From afar I observe Red roof tiles
 How they protect and love, Others Let’s keep in mind The uneven distribution of mass We too frequently overlook No calculation is safe enough It’s a matter of coordinates Precious arranging
 We are always just one step away Nowhere else was the grass greener Or the sky bluer Than that hot July day Cicadas noise made you feel Out of time A concept you were just beginning to grasp Yet the universe conspired with the well Since the beginning of time And a hundred unforeseen feet Spared you the misery of uncovering That as you progress life takes bizarre turns And what you held firmly Slowly gets misplaced And while you try to clench it again You learn you never had it in the first place The well spared you the misery of experiencing Such ecstasy and loss, simultaneously During an unusually warm September, you didn’t live to taste I will not be known From sharp to blunt It will never subside & will survive close to Triton Stay fogged it will It has no right to be In the closer regions Felonious character It wants to crack skulls open Smell blood Regret it soon after Time passing Either slow as molasses Or fast as light The dust hasn’t settled yet, it’s floating in midair I’m waiting for it to fall down so I can swipe it away I don’t see two steps ahead There might be a cliff So I stand still It’s a messy business, this passing through Time & never really feeling at the right juncture Until you do. Until you are right where you are supposed to be. (of course you always were). You forgot how to breathe And could barely walk the half mile Half mile between your room and the Employment Service The well spared you this high noon Where all the secretive words of the last 940 days led For a while, a passage to a parallel dimension was wide open and the old coordinates made no sense The late Summer light scattering in the Secret Garden tiny leaves rustling dreamlike tiny leaves falling snowlike
 no one ever will look as dazzling as you were On that first day of retrograde It was a nameless territory I need to inhabit this foreign land no one can perceive I say The only thing that matters is what goes on in the mind He says Spoken like a true Pisces moon The well spared you 
 having your innermost SCENARIO materialize in front of your eyes Just to turn into dust The redcat on the rooftop was giving you a heads up Pointing you to the backstage 
where you would reenact your original neglect just one more time to walk into your own trap just one more time to be fed cheesecake just one more time Fake politeness can’t stop the stormy weather ahead of us you are determined to retrace every step that hasn’t thrown you into the well hasn’t killed you softly only to push you into the basement where it will reveal what it sees convenient as it sees convenient lies on top of lies with a smile of course and a concern so phony all the llamas in Peru are cracking up ho ho ha ha ha you start slowly cooking your meal. A long period of no fruition Not letting anything through You lay wishing the well had spared you Before the blood That you concealed But the funk gave it away Ancient furniture Cold radiators And just as Janus unexpectedly befriended me, The salt business is o ver. Stingrays whispered to you last night: Time has come To cut that piece of cloth dragging Cut it off so it doesn’t accidentally get entangled somewhere else Hop on the choo choo Much like Mike, I am not going back to Allston.

Everything went on as it was planned All the people held each others hands Making circles as the music played Brought some memories back with them as they sang We burned down our troubled homes to the ground We chose to stay out there on the run We buried our darkest hopes by the trees And drowned our secrets deep into the sea I saw you passing by Your eyes carried a smile With loved ones at your side Those alive and those who have died But that was just a dream That was only a petty little dream That was just a dream That was just a dream Seconds floating by